Long time no write.

Well it's been one heck of a long time since I wrote anything. So much to do so little time & feeling like the white rabbit. Sigh. I have lost to tell. 

One my hubby & I are going to be parents of a little girl. No we have not named her yet, we are waiting to meet her first. 

Our lives have change so much over these past months its hard to find a starting point. We are going through so many changes & I have never felt so loved before. Friends & family reaching out to help out in any way they can. Having to get all the things we need for the baby, all the things we need for us. It's a lot, but we are managing. It's all the little things that feel like I'm forgetting things. I made a list & we went thought it, than you find you need more. Oh! & don't forget this & that & arattatat. Sigh! It's almost too much. 

There the planning of the two trips my hubby is teaching, two family reunions, three weddings & a birth to go though in just two months. Plus our anniversary & another baby shower. It's almost all of our weekends for the summer. I am enjoying having my hubby to my self for a weekend or two in the next week but after that its all running. Lol! Yes our summers are usually busy but we try to have every other weekend to ourselves where we can spend some us time. Might not happen this summer.  I still have to find out time to see my
Family in the middle of all this. 

I just got a whole dresser full of close for my baby girl. We have go through it all, figure out what we are missing, what we want to keep & what's going to the woman's shelter. I hope we can keep most of it. $20 here & there to buy close that only last three months adds up in a hurry. We have all the big ticker items it's just the little things we need to get.  More cloth dippers, more bottles, more bathing stuff. Glass bottles are so expensive!!! $50 for 4. I almost fell over. $15+ per cloth dippers, $60 for the sprayer, but you know what? I will spend $1000 where as if you went with disposable it's $4000 by age 2. I will take the time to wash over paying through the nose for chemicals that were band for causing cancer in women. Not only that but children that use cloth potty train fast & easier. Works for me. Yes it cost more up front, but pays for itself over time. Plus you can use them one more than one child. Big buck saver there. Or we can sell them & make money back. Or give them away. Ether way they don't fill up a land fill, they are used more than once (after washing) & I don't have to worry about running to the store before I'm out. 

We went with glass bottles for a very similar reason. The last forever & are easier clean, keep clean & all you have to do is replace the nipple for a sippy top for toddlers. 

So can't wait till my baby is in my arms. Being 28weeks prego, I'm so over the novelty of it. I know most parents are saying girl! Enjoy the quite time while you have, or sleep now while you can. I know. I know. Trust me i know. I just can't wait to have my baby & to have my body to myself. I don't mind sharing for now but man the kicking, heart burn I just want it over. Plus I feel like a whale with this belly. I know my hubby tells me I'm beautiful but he is wearing love goggles. He would think I was beautiful wearing a potato sack. Lol! I just don't feel like me right now. I miss being me  I know I won't be the same me as before, I will be a mom & that's a new me, but I feel like I'm missing a part of me. I feel like I'm sharing me & I need to give up me, if that makes since. I guess I have fought so long to be me it's hard to give even a part of that up. I know I will be gaining so much more but I still have to deal with it & I will I just need time.