I am trying really hard to find balance in my life. I am going to school to better myself, trying to lose the 55lbs that would make me a healthy weight, I am trying to find a new home for my family. Yet it seems to go sideways every time I seem to take a step forward.
I had a disagreement with Clay & now he is trying to tell me how "I" did wrong. We started the day with some friendly WII golf & bowling. Then I asked him to start the car so we could go to gym. He said we should walk Hank instead & I got really mad. I said "Why don't you walk Hank & I am going to start a load of laundry." I did then I went to gym without him without telling him I was going, but I did put my backpack down in front of him. When I got back he did not come down stairs for 1.5hrs.We always make it a point to great each other every time we come home. He still is not really talking to me. I asked him what was wrong & he did not want to get into it right "now", translation : I am thinking about what I am going to say. Which means I am in the dog house & its all about him. Fun, fun, fun.
I feel like I did nothing wrong. I have been asking him for weeks to go with me & every time he would give me an excuse or ask me to wait till tomorrow & then give me a "I don't feel good" so we would not go. I am through with it. I am going to go out & be social. I am sick of him staying on the couch. I want him with me but I will leave with out him if I have to. I am at a loss at what I should do to get him motivated. I think I am at the point where I have to let him find his own motivation on his own. I know its going to be hard for me, but its for the best. (Stomp, stomp, stomp, I so don't want!) Please wish me luck.
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