01/16/2011

You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection. - Buddha...

One of my all time fav sayings of all time. It reminds me that I can take care of the world, but I still need to be loved & deserve it. Thats the key, that I deserve it. I sometimes for get that I am allowed to be loved as much & more then I love. I try so hard to make everyone happy that I forget about my own happiness, but there again, that is not true ether.  Making others happy makes me happy, so how can I forget about my own happiness? Paradox anyone?

I always think of Budda as a man that found a way to help others find balance in their lives & in doing so helped them to be happy. Not that "rub my tummy" fat man most westerners think of. Life is balance. You have to find peace between your different lives & you do that by finding balance (or the middle road). You have your work life (or school). You have the life you have with your friends, (did that sound redundant to anyone else?) &  you have the life you live at home. Each one of these you have to find the perfect blend of each to make you happy. You can't always go by what others want you to do ether. What works for them might not work for you. See? Balance is the key, without it there is nothing but  sadness, ( I almost wrote Missouri. LOL! Hint: sound it out slowly.) I am slowly working toward my balance, but like all great things it take time & I am only human. Slowly we find what & who we are. That is also part of being human. We learn through trial & error most of the time, but eventually we get to where we want to be in life. It might not be where we expected to be, but we are where it makes us the happiest. I am working towards that now.

Most of my day has been spent on the couch today. I have been coughing & I feel a tightness in my chest. I just hope all the C that I have been taking makes it go away soon & not develop into pneumonia. It will be the first winter in MN that I did not have it. Heres hoping.