Finals are driving me insane

I know have not written in a long while. School & life have been getting to me. I am trying so hard to get A's in all my classes that it's starting to not even make sense to me. I have it one min & the next it's gone. If I was painting I would say to myself that I need to step back, but how do you do that in life? I really don't know.

I cant wait till the summer & all that camping with Clay & Hank but at the same time I am dreading it. I won't have classes for two months & I know that people want me to get a summer job. I have applied at a few places but have not heard back from them yet. Wish me luck in this economy.

Right now I feel like my life is in limbo. I feel like I am waiting for something big to happen & I am stuck waiting till it happens. Its every new feeling for me. I usually make things happen not wait for them. Ggggggrrrr!!!

I am writing a paper now called  Organic Food. I find it every interesting. I am so going local organic food. Gm food can go to the garbage bin for all I care. It makes me sick to know the the USDA is paying the same people that produce the gm food to test it to see if it's safe. How f-Ed is that?! Farmers market anyone! I would much rather pay local farmers to groom my food & support my community in the process.